Hello my is Eric and this is my derealization story i hereby want to share with you.
It all started when i was 19 years old. One fateful night i stayed at a friend’s place. Long story short we were stupid teenagers at the time. We were into experimenting with drugs. We had always been wanting to try acid. We had read a lot about it and felt like we were prepared properly. We were planning to take a so called candyflip. A candyflip is a combination of the drugs mdma and lsd. The ecstasy ought to prevent one from having a bad trip. And so it did. In the beginning it was like as if i were in a good dream i could control. We really enjoyed ourselves. However we did not anticipate that the ecstasy would last considerably shorter than the acid. The ecstasy stopped and my experience turned into a really bad trip. I felt the worst anxiety i have ever had in my entire life. When it was finally over everything felt differently. I experienced the worst brainfog one could possibly imagine, like heavy mist obscuring my very vision. I noticed a sudden alteration in how my mind was processing empiric input. Each and every of my senses seemed irrevocably dulled by the scourge that is derealization. The only things preventing me from the mayhem in my head were excessive masturbation beyond the point of orgasm and hard liquor. I went tot he doctors but no one had even heard of the things i was going through. Without any help i was doomed to drop out of school and live a life consisting of lying in my own feces and watching cartoons on my smartphone. However after almost two years of infirmity i learned about clonazepam on the internet. I found a doctor who would prescribe it to me. Now my life is not back to normal but bearable.